Edit 6 Removed by me....due to the nasty threatening people, trying to intimidate the kind compassionate ones for being a good person. Never intended for any of this to take place or to "get over on anyone" I made a post to get something off my chest, correct! probably the wrong place to do so, especially the way some community members threw a tantrum over a guy saying he had brain surgery, the hate he and his family generated just from that, for doing nothing wrong....hey they were wanting a hand out too huh? Obviously. ( sarcasm, I actually wrote them a long heart felt letter saying not to listen to the haters, and how I hope destiny helps him heal, as that was doctors orders) There are plenty of people that are more deserving than I, more qualified than I, however I am no fraud, no scammer, no liar. I refused numerous handouts from multiple people, refused multiple systems, again from multiple people, as again this is not why not what I wanted, I was merely looking for dads and like minded people to relate too, that enjoyed and shared a similar passion about a game I enjoyed while my children were asleep in their beds. I never implied my children were hungry, I never implied that at all, so people saying I should have fed my kids and such, that is why I worked and took the first job I found when unemployment ran out, and it only ran out for one, because during that time, I had personal family issues going on in between my work searches and interviews The thing about me is, I have had one job my whole life, at which I was at for 6 years, starting at the very bottom and working my way up to the highest paid position besides plant manager.....so when we would be laid off due to uncertainty in tax credits, renewable energy credits and what not, we would spend my savings staying afloat, so by the time we were hit with the big lay off, my savings was non existent... The thing is, I've been at the bottom, that's where I came from, been to the top, was there for a few years, then the bottom dropped out and there was little I could do to stop the slide we were in..... Not settling for a 9$ hr job when you have potential management jobs coming up and what not, I don't feel like it was a bad move, I waited for the right thing to come along, and it didint, the market hasn't rebounded since. Does that mean I'm stupid? Or lazy? Or should be strangled? No it does not, the thing about it is, I am very well versed and trained, and have many certificates and qualifications, none of which have to do with carpet or turf, which unfortunately are pretty much the only local places to work, so in desperation, I made a decision to continue to feed my family while we waited on something more suitable to come along. Does that make me a bad person? Hardly. I didint live above my means, or blow money, actually on the contrary, and that's how I was able to purchase my home and. Vehicles and pay them off aswell , because I was diligent with my finances , and saved everything, but that only takes you so far, and if you don't get that, then you haven't lived that... I've worked for everything my family has and never asked for anything, I wasn't expecting anything from anyone, wasn't wanting anything from anyone, I had more than most fully grown men do, and slowly I lost it all due to reasons and things beyond my control....slowly but surely. And at Christmas time I let the last of "my material things" go...which I would've done again and again, but it wasn't to pay bills it was for Christmas for my children , not because the bills weren't paid or they were hungry or anything like that, I don't know where people were getting that...I just said there was no possible way for me to get another because my priority is my family, not a game, yet you try to say it's reversed and it's not and never has been. If you wish violence on me for this, then all I can say is may god bless your poor poor soul, if you can relate to this, please let's talk , that's what I was truly searching for in the first place! To those of you that set up a donation page for me and in my name, so I could get a new system and have a little extra money, I appreciate the kindness and love you have shown here today, I'm very sorry that by choosing to do something nice for me, out of your own free will turned into people being jerks to you, you have my sincerest thanks and appreciation. To those that donated to the page, I thank you for trying to help a father out by providing contributions, that was never asked for nor necessary, but you did it out of the kindness of your heart, you did so and I am eternally grateful to you for that, god will bless you in many ways and I wish you all the very best in everything you pursue in life... To those that could relate, or were touched or moved by my story! This is what it was all about, creating a positive feeling or experience for others. Thank you for sharing your stories, struggles and your positive insight, I appreciate all or you for taking the time to reach out to me and offer your words of wisdom, god bless you all. To those that felt or feel the need to be rude, nasty, and hateful to myself and anyone else on this thread, may you also be blessed on everything you do, I am not mad at you for ye not know what you do.....I was just an innocent man sharing a story and that was that, you couldn't and wouldn't stand for that, or stand the fact the genuinely nice people were offering anything to me with their own free will.... May god have mercy on your poor souls, may you learn to still your mind and your tongue. Thank you to everyone in the community for contributing their two sense! Have a blessed 2015!!!!!