It's great when things actually work and function, until everything just falls on you to try hard enough to be good enough. It's complicated to make this a positive response and crucial to the fact that there's so many posts that rely on the negative ideas on pvp and so many people having a hard time accepting where we are with pvp. There's no view point to this post, I just genuinely felt to explain myself to absolutely what doesn't matter because it's literally just a game. I'm slow so getting to be quick for me is a struggle and I noticed so many people in pvp are just there for fun or not. I try to at least find the fun, though when it gets frustrating when things get super heated most of the time. Because players just seem not to die when you know you just aimed at their head or chest. This can sound like an argument pointing nowhere and it's just because I'm terrible at playing the crucible most times when I just can't seem to get over the fact I'm bored and just aggressively angry over something stupid. To those like me that struggle, just know if today is meant to kick your butt, accept it. Because failing needs to happen before you succeed. And taking a step back will improve you to keep strong and not worry so much about something that doesn't matter at all. When you enjoy something to much, you also have take a step back from it too. Otherwise you'll lose yourself and find yourself in a deep complicated situation that is you making it difficult for you to listen and pay attention to what's infront of you now. Most people will try make you mad, because your allowing yourself to care to much about the bs that makes you affected by what is not even a problem. It's the solution you choose to avoid, and continue to rage inside a sick and tiring bubble. When you believe it's time to find a different subject, play another game or hobby that is not even video games. Be compassionate to yourself because then you'll find that passion to awaken that confidence again. Be patient and go with the flow.