[url=https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/848648978190041128/940399645664874556/20220207_181204.jpg]I am upset[/url]

I want to move house but all the places around me are way too expensive. I could move farther away which would theoretically be cheaper, but then I’d have to pay to commute every day which would end up not being much different. I don’t like relying on public transport anyway as I work odd shifts and the busses/trains often don’t run late enough, which is why I’ve always stayed within walking distance (I’ve happily walked 40 mins both ways before lmao) of work. We’re supposed to get a pay rise in April so I’ll see where that leaves me. I told myself I was semi-retiring from this place, because of the way I would dive in here for hours at a time and ignore the rest of my life, and I managed like a month I think? I have made some positive steps recently so I think I can continue posting here on the basis that I don’t slide back down the mud-caked ladder too far. Perhaps I’ll get banned soon, I reckon I’m overdue one. And then we have the actual great big terrible thing that I’m asking for an extra day off work to try and get my head around. Mental health is such a difficult thing to get a handle of, especially when your default state is barely coping. I think I spend most of my energy pretending that everything is fine. Perhaps that’s why I find being around people so exhausting. I was on those shifts a few years ago; ‘condensed hours’ it’s called. Where instead of doing 5 standard days you do fewer days with longer hours so you don’t lose any money. It sounds like hell but it really worked for me. I don’t do other things on the days I’m in work and it gives me an extra day to get on top of myself. Perhaps I’ll see a therapist on my new day off, it’s the kind of thing people go to therapists for. But I can’t afford a private one and the waiting list for the NHS is ridiculous. My sister was in the throes of anorexia the other year; the GP said if they left it much longer she’d end up in hospital. NHS gave her 3 months to wait for a place at a clinic; private place saw her in 2 weeks.

I'm not around here as much either. But it still seems like usual business

Yes

Well you’re back, that’s nice I’m good, finally got back to writing some things. As for tomfoolery, I’m not sure. Though Acro is kind of doing good with the whole leadership thing

Sore[spoiler]licks thumb [/spoiler]

I must know for closure cause i missed a lot around here, were you the bear?

Forgot to exist for a while then I came back and voila, still a whomst'd've

no u

Oh I remember you. Take a doodle. [spoiler]and a cookie 🍪 [/spoiler]

We’ve evolved by going too far backwards