We all have our stories. My mum passed away in a bloody death from cancer in my arms in my living room last year, so traumatic I went into counselling, a month after i lost my dog. Just before Christmas my nan passed away unexpectedly so yeah last year was definitely a shit one! I have spent endless hours playing consoles games to try and zone out, forget about it and relieve myself of the pain but don't become a zombie. You need to stick with those bad feelings to get over them. It's a dark path that leads to the light. Being a guardian i'm sure you can do it!