I have spinal stenosis, which means the inside of my spinal column is thickening and putting pressure on my spinal cord. This will eventually lead to the death of most, if not all, the neurons on the right side of my body and possibly all my neurons below my waist leaving my crippled. I won't be able to walk or move any part of the right side of my body. It might ultimately cause my heart to stop as well, but my doctor and I won't know if that will happen for another 5-10 years. I'm 21. I'm in quite a bit of pain day-to-day, but I push through it because I'd rather feel pain than feel nothing at all. I've been to both of those places mentally and I've learned that feeling [i]something[/i] is better than feeling nothing, even if that something is pain.