I arrived in the tower last week tired. I wanted to celebrate with all my fellow guardians but I just couldn’t. As I tried to put on a happy face and celebrate I started to question the purpose of the fight. Maybe it’s a little PTSD or just exhaustion from the constant fighting. As I looked at the Traveler I wondered if I am really a guardian or just a zombie errand boy doing the dirty work of the traveler. I questioned is this light that I possess and do I really fight for it or has it all been a rouse of the darkness and I don’t weld the light but I am an agent of darkness fighting off the enemies of the traveler. I am told I fight for humanity but I feel like I am committing genocide for the darkness. I know it’s a lot to process and for that is the reason I must leave the tower in search of answers. The truth... the real truth. I am sorry that I will not join you all in the Fall as you look beyond light but I need to find the answers away from all the fighting. I need to head into the sunset myself and see if my fatigue will be replaced. My coms will stay tuned to all the guardians chatter to see if answers prevail but until I find truth I can’t come back. I realize many will call into question my service record and I understand, but in my defense and to no regret the fight against Oryx exhausted me to the point where I failed to join another fire team to continue the fight. Good bye my fellow guardians I need the sunset for now and someday I hope to rejoin the fight. Good luck Guardians!