Just...im so tired. So. -blam!-ing. Tired. of always coming back and getting nothing. Titles are complete shit to grind for, 90% of it is rng based. I feel like cutting my arms and legs off because of how many times I've tried to get 1k voices. I can't even stomach a crucible match without getting a stomach ache and lump in my throat, and don't even get me started on gambit, I actually want to die. And today I just went through the motions while playing this -blam!-ing terrible mentally disabled game, I played the raid thinking "oh boy, another chance of me not getting 1k voices" while a guy we were carrying on his 1st try gets it. But that wasn't the straw that broke the camel's back. I tried to get jotun today, and in thinking it's my first attempt, so of course in not gonna get it. And at the end, my other 2 teammates get it. And I just -blam!-ing lose it. After the 6 months of no new exotics, I finally lose it, after just 1 attempt. Imagine that. And I've been playing since the aplha days of Destiny 1.