Seems like to much effort. Same reason I don't exercise.

I already have plans to kms on Christmas eve.

Scrolling through this thread, I wonder of I should stop visiting Bungie Forums. I feel so out of place, because I am probably the only one here that has never been depressed...

When I was in just fifth grade, but not as a depressed thing. I was doing dishes and had a knife in my hand, and the thought occurred that I could stab and kill myself right there. Not that I should, but it was a possibility. Swore I'd never cut or attempt suicide because depression was dumb. I was ignorant of exactly what depression did to people at the time. Then high school came around, it was about sophomore year I began to realize I had depression, started cutting the summer before senior year. I've thought countless times of killing myself, came close to attempting a couple times. For me, it was a certain desolation, that nothing could or would ever go right for me and to even attempt was folly. But I'm getting better, tomorrow will be two months clean of not cutting.

Yes actually. Some stuff happened when I was younger that I didn't really confront until I was a teenager. It started with some drinking and pot in seventh grade and by freshman year I was using coke. I hurt myself a lot and just didn't care about life. I was truant so much I got expelled and almost went to juvie. I ran away from home the summer before sophomore year and stayed with a dealer, who was in his mid twenties, I met through a guy at my alternative school. That's when shit hit the fan. One day my dealer offer me some H. It started with smoking, then progressed to snorting. Two weeks later I was injecting. To put it lightly he was abusive and I was strung out for about three months until I turned myself in to escape him. I got sent to rehab for a month and a half. When I got out, I thought I was better. I went back to school and was making the usual As and a few Bs. But then the depression came back. I started to hurt myself and a month later I was using again. I decided I didn't want to live anymore and got lit and sat in the garage with the car running. Next thing I know I'm waking up in the hospital. After that I was sent to a behavioral hospital (basically a mental hospital) for 5 months. I had been in a few acute stays, but nothing like that. I had to face my demons and I finally decided that I had to make a change. I have now been clean since August 22, 2014. I got out of the hospital late December of what should have been my junior year but couldn't bear to go back to high school. I studied over the next few months and earned my GED in late May. In what should have been my senior year of high school, I started classes at my local community college. Two years later I received my associates degree. I am now currently a junior attending a four year college for Psychology and Legal Issues. I hope to one day work to put people who abuse children in prison, and hopefully to make a small difference in this crooked world. If you are actually still reading this, thank you. But the point of all that was to say: [b][u]NEVER GIVE UP[/u][/b]! When life seems its darkest, keep pushing forward. It does get better, I promise. Never let anyone, especially yourself, hold you back. Always keep moving. Stay strong :) <3

Nope. Yes to mass murder though.

Just about how I would commit it if I decided to, I decided on hit by a train. Low margin of error for failure, should be an instant death.

All the comments saying "I realize this is a joke thread, but" stop yourselves right there. If you realize it's a [i]joke[/i], don't try to make it about yourselves, no one came here to listen to your problems.

I realize this is a joke thread, but suicide isn't really something to be joked about. It's a serious difficulty for many people, including myself. So to answer your question, yes I have thought about suicide. About 7 weeks ago, I wanted to kill myself more than I wanted to do anything else. The memory is still perfectly vivid in my mind, and it's most likely the most powerful memory I have. It was a terrifying experience, and something that I hope to never feel again.