Its definitely toxic i’ll give you that… and it can be very unforgiving initially. I’m not too sure about stressful, it’s a game at the end of the day. I suggest finding weapon archetypes that cater to your play style then customize your armor to optimize things like unflinching aim, reload speeds, targeting, class abilities etc. Look into aspects that offer additional armor stats too. A big part of the crucible is gearing up for it. It’s very easy to dismiss this for most new players. Max out your armor with ascension shards. Once your gear is set then comes the gradual process of acquiring good accuracy and game sense. That’ll just come naturally with experience. I suggest running in a team yourself, maybe 2 or 3 other players to keep things challenging and engaging. Six stacks tend to be boring stomp matches. I hope this helps. I’m a new light player but have attained unbroken and have had success in trials. PvP can be very thrilling once you get accustomed to it all.