Do I really want an after life? I mean even if in this afterlife I am pampered to my hearts content, well, uh..you know what they say, eternity is a [i]really long time[/i]. I mean there is something definitive and satisfying going with the cynical approach, an actual ending. One minute you're alive, the next your conscious ceases to exist. It's all over. Part of me wants a heaven, part of me wants to return as a wildebeest but of course part of me just wants finality. Am I making any sense?