I can't for the life of me force myself to try to get the catalyst let alone complete it and it mentally hurts me to see that I have the gun but no catalyst. I'd rather not have the gun at all than how it is now. I didn't even get the gun how I normally should. My fireteam did it while I just waited at the big outside jumping puzzle with the cranes. So for one, I don't deserve the gun and it torments me to not have the catalyst or rather not having the capabilities to even own the catalyst/gun at all. So if any Bungie employee could just delete the gun from my collection(with triumph and what not) I'd appreciate it. Also, I would rather delete my account and all my progress than do that mission or any secret mission again. For those that enjoy them good for you but I can happily live without them.