I'm sooooo sorry for you clan's loss. I'm struggling mightily right now too, and my fireteam and clan and the world of Destiny is a welcome escape. It's one of the few things helping me cope with my own CPTSD. And *actually* recommended by my therapist. We're never alone. And please, please, if you ever feel like you are, reach out, there's someone to help. 1-800-273-8255 - National Suicide Crisis Line