I have a 3.5 gpa without caring at all, one of the strongest guys in my class as of now, very popular, never used drugs, and I can talk to girls easily. And I couldn't be more miserable. my dad is an abusive alcoholic and my moms in denial and I have diagnosed manic depression. (I say diagnosed to confer that I'm not an attention seeking bitch). My friend who is also popular athletic etc tried to off himself with a Bowie knife but didn't go through with it (thankfully, we already had a kid die by jumping hills at 100 mph on gravel, and for a highschool with 360 kids through 4 classes 1 death decimated us. Two would be horrendous). I know that your life is probably worse, but hey, anybody struggling can help each other out a lot.