Oh shiiiiit I think you broke the fourth dimension! It's like you're living out one timeline where you crash and one where you don't; that's where the split begins. I don't know how to help you and I'm sorry you're suffering but I'm seriously curious to know what's happening in this "alternate timeline." Imagine if there's an entire other world that another version of ourselves ate experiencing but you're the only one who has access to both worlds. You should study any correlations between the timelines by following world news and things. Edit: Made this before reading the full post so anyway there goes that theory. I would say get ahold of a psychiatrist but you've come to that conclusion yourself I imagine.