I'm so sorry for your lose :( Losing a dog that you have grown up with is tough. My lab Tmaxx (we found her tearing up a trash bag on the side of the road on the way to the monster jam that night, so I named her after one of the trucks that's as there ) passed away back in June and it's still not the same. She was my first dog and had been with me since I was about 6 years old. She got me through some tough times in my life and was always there for a shoulder to cry on or to give hugs (yes I taught her how to give hugs <3)