I don't really have the same problem But with my brothers passing I have really become angry, and the thought of fighting gets me excited and sweaty. My hands start shaking and I just want to fight the first black person I see or white it doesn't matter I just want to fight, With my brothers passing I've also looked to religions to help me, I keep hearing about all these mighty gods, and I wonder..Can I hunt them? And can I kill them? No just god would punish his people so, And it's time they faced punishment. I grow very restless at nights, I just want to explore, walk an walk and maybe climb. Maybe. What a strange life.