Wow. Just...wow...this community is sick. Not every one has the tools to deal. The thing most of you are missing, is that if it hurts, you can't just turn that off. Its an odd emotional pain, similar to a "broken heart". And if you live in that dark place, that pain is life. You hate it, maybe hate yourself for it, but its your life, its what you've got. Learning to deal has left me a broken human being. Please get help. No one needs this hell. No one deserves it.