( Alright, I didn't expect this to trend, so please just privet message me if you wanna help. I want this to die down. [b]Please[/b]. ) TBH I don’t do raids at all and this is because of a lot of reasons. I’m a really slow person so if you explain everything we’re doing before we do it, I won’t understand. Well.. I will, but my mind tries to trick me and make me think I don't. Too much information given to me makes it that way. As we do something I have to be told right then where to go and what to do. When to come back when to jump and no one really has the patience for that. Every time I tried to do a raid I was stuck with assholes. Literally. Every. Time. So it's put kind of a mental scar and worry on my shoulders that it'll just keep happening. Someone screaming at someone else about something they did themselves or just being a dick to other people that was a lower light level then them and a bunch of other things… Obnoxious kids who scream and legit cry into the mic because they didn’t get to do what they wanted. I have [i]severe[/i] anxiety when it comes to talking on mic especially in a group of three or more people. I only have one person I play with on Destiny and they can hardly be on so i’m literally by myself 99.9% of the time. I can’t stand being on mic, sometimes I get so panicky I almost have a breakdown. My mind starts to race and listening to everyone have fun makes my brain try to feed me information that no one wants me there and that i’m a bother because I, [b]myself[/b], can’t make myself speak and join in with everyone unless i’m spoken to directly. (Not the entire time, I don't want to be the center of attention at all. Please n o, but i'm just saying I probably wont even say a peep unless someone speaks to me first ) If someone messes up in the raid I automatically think it’s my fault even if it isn’t and I feel like everyone is pointing fingers at me and hates me for some reason ???? Lmao idk why. I want so much of the raid gear and my dad never really has time anymore to get on my account and do it for me. So I constantly feel left out in the Destiny community and “uncool” lmao I'm a 20 yr and I hate how mental problems still gets in the way of my fun constantly. This is why I never really try to make friends on Destiny either because i'm afraid my mental problems will get in the way too much, but yeah. Really the only Raid i've been fully through was Vault of Glass before the light level was raised and actually I did just fine. I did everything we were suppose to correctly, again it's literally my mind that tries to deceive me. I think Crota would be easy, but I'd never know and i'm afraid I never will. This is what it's like playing Destiny alone with Anxiety feels like. ( And please no negative comments if you have any. ) [spoiler]Moderator edit: This thread has been moved to the #Destiny forum. See [url=https://www.bungie.net/en/Forum/Post/140391030/0/0]Cozmo's thread[/url] for more information about the #Destiny tag and its uses. Feel free to private message the moderator who moved your post, link to topic, for further clarification about why this topic was moved.[/spoiler]