So I had this friend and we were good friends, needless to say she was married. She was not happy in her marriage and I never had the intention of sleeping with her but we did. And that really -blam!-ed me up inside because I didn't know what we were now. I know it was wrong. She was distant and we basically became strangers. This is what I said to her Sometimes it's so difficult to talk to you. I just I don't know how the -blam!- to feel right now. I mean did we do that because it was just a hook up or was it something else? Are we friends? Or what the actual -blam!- are we? Because this is how I feel no drama just listen. You were not there when I needed someone to talk to. Yet I was there for you when you needed me. I kind of feel like you did me bogus I guess. I don't even know how I see you anymore. A friend? Did you just use me or is there something else that I'm completely oblivious too. I just need to know what the -blam!- am I to you so i can understand this better. If you were just playing games with me just say so. I won't judge you. She replied [quote] I was never playing games with you in the first place. Thought we were friends, but I guess I don't really know anymore either. What we did was a mistake. I wasn't drunk and I know better. Should've never lead you on in that way. Yeah, I wasn't available when you needed me, and I apologize for that. It's hard because of my husband I know you don't care, but I do value his feelings. He's my husband and I do love him with all of me. [/quote] I said That's all I needed to know thank you She said [quote] You're welcome. I don't play games or start drama. If this concludes our friendship, so be it. I'm sorry for not being the friend you deserve. [/quote And my final message to her was Don't apologize I'm just glad I know now rather than later. Didnt want to say something that I would regret. And some things are better left unsaid. I'll leave you alone. It's the right thing to do. I won't forget you. Just stay safe. The end And yes this was during my break up guys. So I was single. Now I really feel -blam!-ed up. Like I was used....talk to me fam... Edit 1 I said this You were not drunk I was! why the hell did you stay if you could of drove back home. Why the -blam!- did you lead me on like that. You knew exactly what you were doing as soon as you walked in through the door. And cut me the I love my husband bs if you did you wouldn't have done that in the first place. You -blam!-ed with my head. I never want to see you again. You don't do that to friends. Especially those that had your back. You have no -blam!-ing clue how guilty I felt. Have a -blam!-ing g8 life. Stay the -blam!- away from me And she replied [quote] I never led you on. You tried to kiss me that one day and I pushed you away. That should have been enough. Yes, I made a mistake. I should've left, however, I WAS drinking and I'm not trying to get a DUI. I will be sure to never talk to you again. I'm sorry for ruining your life. Hope you could find it in your heart to forgive me even if we aren't friends. Have a great day! [/quote] So yeah I don't know anymore