I know it sucks getting destroyed by sweatlords who play this game for a job, but I gave up on going flawless a long time ago, now I just take my xp that I get regardless, grind out, get a few engrams and try to get some good loot and then get out for the weekend. The Adept weapons are nice, but in no way are they or any weapon in this game worth sweating out super hard and getting frustrated for a couple days straight

Im trying to do what you are doing and just get the loot from trials but the old pvp guy in me gets pissed when i constantly lose.

Oh without a doubt it sucks. I'm not a pvp player (just look at my KD lol) so maybe that's why it's easier for me to take getting stomped, but for your sanity you have to hang onto something right? Lol

Back in D1 days was my time in the pvp playlist. But enough about me. Hope you succeed and get to the lighthouse my friend, ill be rooting for you.