Dear Friends,
Each day I feel progressively weaker. Just goes to show money doesn't solve all of your problems, at least she won't have to worry about financials as an adult for a while(hopefully lol).
Doctors are saying it could be anywhere from 12 hours to 2 weeks from now. As I lie in this uncomfortable ass hospital bed, it just doesn't feel real, but my role here in this life has been played, and I accept that. I just know she doesn't.
She won't leave my side, she cried herself to sleep last night. I don't want her to leave, and I don't want to leave her. I'm so conflicted, I accept that it's my time to go, but I can't leave her. She needs me.
I need her...
Needless to say, this will be my last post. Thank you all for your love and support, it meant a lot.
Farewell.
-God
[spoiler]When I come to the end of my journey
And I travel my last weary mile,
Just forget if you can, that I ever frowned
And remember only the smiles.
Forget unkind words I have spoken;
Remember some good I have done,
Forget that I ever had a heartache
And remember I've had loads of fun.
Forget that I have stumbled and blundered
And sometimes fell by the way.
Remember I have fought
Some hard battles and won,
Ere the close of the day.
Then forget to grieve for my going,
I would not have you sad for a day,
But in summer just gather some flowers
And remember the place where I lay.
And come in the evening,
When the sun paints the sky in the west,
Stand for a few moments beside me,
And remember only my best.
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Sad thing that bungie never visits this hell-hole anymore - I feel like a member of the community, even our little sub-community, that is as present and memorable as God deserves recognition in a TwaB or something. Oh well.
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Oh this is the guy. Someone should change that user name.
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Hope that your daughter does well in her future.[spoiler] You aren't truly gone if you're still remembered. Offtopic shall remember your presence and posts.[/spoiler]
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Spartans never die... You are just missing in action friend
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Came back to the site after a few months just to say goodbye. I hope you go peacefully, my dude. We’ll all miss you.
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Hope you ain't lying, because that name is offensive as hell.
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Fighting the same battle here. Survived the surgery only to have complications from the chemotherapy almost take me out. Sorry to hear your battle isn't going better than mine. Say hello to my abuelito for me.
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I've never come across you before, but no one should ever have to lose their loved ones so early. Cancer may take you away from your family, but they will always remember you as the great man you are. Your daughter will grow up knowing that you died fighting, and she will definitely be proud of you. Rest in peace, guardian.
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Ad Victorium
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Rest well guardian. One day, you'll be reunited with everyone. Farewell.
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Keep the Faith Guardian and Godspeed........everything will be OK.
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Eyes up Guardian. Affected me more than anything in this forum.
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I didn't speak with you much, but the times I did speak to you, you were an awesome person who, to me, is super chill and an all-around nice person. You treated a lot of people with respect on this forum, and I feel that I should give the same amount of respect that you gave others, and you gave to me. Even if it's not much, I hope that the doctors were wrong and that you have longer to live. I hope that your family will remember all the good memories they had with you and will always remember them. You're an awesome person, and I hope to see you up there when my time comes.
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I am so sorry to see this.. You've been Incredibly strong for so long and I know your main concern has always been for your daughter and altho it's not much, all I can do is send all the love in the world to her at this time. Altho we have never really spoken, it's been nice knowing you as much as I have and seeing you around. ♥️
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You have served well guardian. Rest now. C'ya starside God.
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I have a hard time believing this. If you really had 12 hours to 2 weeks which that doesn’t make much sense as it is. 12 hours to 2 weeks is a big difference for a person who has cancer. My dad died of it and when he was within a week of dying he barely had the strength to eat or drink let alone be able to type of a page.
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I come back after 2.5 months to see this. You may not see this but know that this is not the end for your. You'll be with your wife again and you both can watch your daughter grow in heaven. You two can be her guardian angels and watch over her. Its never truly the end. I can tell you always gave her love based off your post and that you indeed are a fantastic person who always gave it your best. Though itll be tough for her she will make it through. If you dont see this thats fine. Rest in paradise god, when its my time to pass i hope to meet you in heaven. I dont drink much but id love to have one with you.
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I'm very sorry. Cancer sucks.
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Bad things happen to good people...You will be missed man.
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"Eyes up guardian."
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Edited by Hyperion724: 4/14/2018 9:49:12 PMI'm sorry. I hope you are able to rest in peace. [spoiler] [i]"Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the force. Morn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed, that is.[/i] -Master Yoda[/spoiler]
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Don’t know whether to like or dislike...
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Never thought anything on this forum could make my cry... I thought wrong. You will be remembered. I hope you know Jesus. :(
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You sir, are a God I can support.. Hopefully it works out in the end..
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I'm a Never forget you
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About god, sadly I’ve never lost anyone to cancer in my family. Even though it runs prominently in my family. Before I was born my grandmother (who is still alive) had breast cancer. She was on her deathbed and the doctors sent her home to die. She went home. And never died. And she had a family that lead to me being born. Never lose hope