ok here is my take on this. You are doing something you enjoy. You are something she enjoys. in her mind she feels you should feel like she does.. and this is the biggest issue. Communication is the key issue. Serving for so long away from her, has trained you to communicate differently.. and the communication in the military is way different than the kind that those on the outside know. My advice is, try to explain to her that the game is fun and distracting to your disorders. You still love her, and want to make the turn around in your life, what can she do to help you? talk about it with her... the game is not competition and I feel in your post that you possibly have the situation that she has been in control for a significant time, and with you home, it has caused a hurdle in that dynamic. Being a military person, I understand the dynamics at play for returned serviceman. she needs to accept you are home... YOU need to accept you are home too. While you deserve all the rest for your service at keeping freedom alive, remember, there are people that will never understand the impact that has on a persons life. You need to now protect your loved ones from ever knowing that truth. Good luck, relationships are one of the most complicated things to deal with.. sometimes I would prefer to walk a minefield blindfolded.