I think Im not really worth anyones time for those who I fond attractive, Im not good looking (Im not ugly a -blam!- but still), Im boring and very introvert, Im not very good socially and hence why I think Im not worth girls time since Im very low down on the male hierarchy (gamma or beta male), Im awkward around some girls, I just seem like friend not like relationship option (no Ive not been friend zoned before) and Im depressive and appear cold die to my sense of humour (though my friends GFs seem to get the humour after a while. Im probably depressed though Ive never thought of being checked for it. Im not very manly really since Im not muscly in the slightest (I wouldnt be able to lift my GF up in my arms) and Im small (I like being 5.45 ft but its a bit of a downside in attractiveness and intimate moments always seem to have the male being taller) Im that psychologically insecure that if I did get into a relationship id probably get too nervous that its a joke or that Im being really bad at a relationship thus causing me to actually become bad at the relationship. My friends seem to make fun of me (which I dont mind) at the wrong moment where it makes me look like a pathetic lowly man to the opposite sex, and Ill probably be bad a sex. To think that even at college I cant get a GF. And before 'fat nerdy fedora wearing scrublord'(lol) Im not fat, spotty and all the other hideous nerd qualities of the stereotype Im very skinny and have quite clear skin, though the depression and stress probably have had an effect on my complexion, All of this spirals me into the depression and the furthering of these unattractive traits (though theyre common even in alpha males) which leads me to being less socially active and nervous (Im not awkward to talk to though) and the fact that I dont show others how I feel (In not the silent guy etc Im happy talking to people of either sex and do ok at it quite often) probably allows the depression and stress of said worthlessness to build up destroying me even further and impacting on my learning since I have no self confidence. Or if that went too real too fast: 'because man's bear sick ugly init bruh'