Opened my heart to a girl. Let down my guard with her like I never have before. Loved her totally. We were together for a long time, spent almost every day together. We'd go a day without seeing each other and be on the phone for 4 hours together to talk. Spent nearly every night at hers, last thing I saw before I went to sleep and first thing I saw when I woke up. Had loads of cute dates; ice-skating, rock climbing, we kissed at midnight at 12am this new year, had an amazing valentine's, we booked a holiday together for summer. Beautiful girl, we had sex all the time. We were supposed to be living together from next month, we'd looked at a small studio student flat together. Then in a few days it all went to shit, things came crashing down, we broke up a couple months back. Don't think I'll ever feel the same about someone as I did her. Certainly don't want a girlfriend again, at least not now. Dated a few girls since, -blam!-ed a few more casually. Feel so emotionally detached, one's in love with me wanting to be my gf and I feel less for her months into meeting her than I felt for my ex after our first ever date. Shit's messed up. But I'm content being single right now.