I never really had one. I had close female friends, but I never took that extra step. I recently did, and it was from an almost completely unexpected place too. Best part is that we're more alike than I could have possibly dreamed (music tastes, cleanliness habits, work ethic, religious beliefs, movie tastes). We're far away, so we haven't had any "dates" but we video chat every day, for several hours a day (sometimes even overnight sleeping). She's visiting me for 2 weeks in december. Basically, Just keep looking, you'll find "The One" at some point, and it may be unexpected. Don't be ashamed though, there are so many people like you, it's not unusual to not have 8 relationships by the time you get to college. It's more that the people that have are more vocal about it than those that haven't.