Just a little something of my experience from being a Crucible try hard to my conversion into a careless casual and it's result. So year 1 was my prime, specifically HoW. My aim was true and my goal to top 100 was set in stone, months and months of lossless skirmish & badassery and eventually I reached that goal! It was exciting but also short-lived. TTK comes around, I'm still in my prime... Two?... Three months? After that things slowed down a little due to lack of time in my life to play as often. Supposed rivalries with fellow Guardians became something I no longer cared for, I found myself trash talking way less often & just wanting to play the game (you know), the times I did trash talk I think I just wanted to fit in with the team still. Crimson doubles comes around. Finding it difficult to keep up with the meta because of lack of dedication, losing very often.. I don't even care about my losses anymore... KD? whatever I'll live... starting to enjoy fun builds instead of sweaty load outs to pass the time.... Strikes seem like a good way to chill... Odd notion for me. April update: Busy life, pretty much gave up on trying hard to win and 'git gud'... Still play often enough... Three times a week for a few hours?.... Start enjoying the companionship of my characters more... Worrying more about how adorable I can make my Titan other than how high I can get my KD. Today: Don't care anymore, here to have fun... Pretty much stopped sweating & raging at the game... Enjoy myself more... Also say hi to 'Kate' the adorable Titaness... Had time on my hands to name her [spoiler]Yeah I like fanfiction[/spoiler]. Hehe. Point being that over this time I've had to adjust myself I've come to realise that everything we do in regards to nerfs, buffs & everything in between is because we care too much. Just have fun & you'll realise it's all not worth the hassle. Kate memes [spoiler] http://s32.postimg.org/5rmxetf4l/IMG_59d143a8_f7f4_4eb9_b593_5735b436f286.png http://s32.postimg.org/qjuywzt91/IMG_48158b47_f7ee_4c94_87bd_6401f232e0cf_2.png [/spoiler]