During my hiatus, rumors of my unfortunate demise circulated around bnet. No doubt perpetuated by somebody who feels they have reason for enmity towards me. I'm not exactly sure what exactly I did to earn such vitriol. No, I don't mean I'm innocent, I'm just not sure which of my many wrongs inspired such seething vitriol. Or perhaps somebody has too much time on their hands and too little fulfillment in their life. But no, I am not dead. In fact, a profound change is happening in my life. I will not elaborate on any specifics, for only a fool would bare his life to anons in cyberspace. But I am cutting out cancers in my life, eliminated vices that should have been eliminated long ago. I have not been as active because quite frankly, this forum is not life. No, life is when you give yourself to the service of others, willingly. It is when you see your brother suffering and you lend a helping hand. It is when you see a family without a home, so you build them one. Life is not spending your time browsing the net, arguing all this trivial and meaningless. It is not about getting into pissing contests about which game/political party/music/etc is better. Life is not posting bait and deceitfully labeling it as satire. It seems fun, doesn't it? Getting a rise out of people, feeding drama, seeing how much you can shock people. It makes you feel powerful doesn't it? But does it make you happy, or do you feel a seething anger at those who see your actions for what they are: desperate attempts at filling a void? Anyway, like I said, I've made profound changes in my life within the past few weeks and I hope to continue along this path. I sold my ps4, Xbox one, got rid of most of my games, so now I will be ready to go where I need to be. After I get my degree, I think I'll get involved with a volunteer mission. I feel called to help bring homes to those who don't have any and to bring food to the poor. A community that does that is where you will find fulfillment. This website is not a community at all, just an imitation of one. As I continue down this path, I expect my presence here will become more and more scarce. But suicide? Far from it. o_____________<