I don't really support self harm at all. Which is particularly hypocritical of me because I often do it, to the point where it is now an addiction. I don't exaggerate it; if I were to describe it to anybody one of the first words out of my mouth would be 'addiction'. I get withdrawals if I don't self harm even for a day. At about 11 PM, I start getting noticeably agitated, the scars start to literally burn and I feel the need to rub them constantly. It happens in public and often when I attend school. With no way to control it I would bite my arms a lot and my friends would often ask why I bite my own arms. I starved myself for sometimes 2-3 days. I frequently squeeze ice in my hands, punch myself, experiments... The list goes on. Be careful, OP. You really, really do not want to go down this path. I started out like you but it took over my entire life. I've now just recently started to get major help.