So my cousin and I are really close. She is actually my best friend, we use to do things together all the time. Like when we were both 5-12 years of age we took showers together, we were both in the same classes during our elementary years. But as we got to our teenage years we end up having less time with another, due to the fact that we both went our separate ways. We both went to the same high school but had totally different classes. After school I end up getting a job at my local pizza store, while my cousin was taking extra courses in night school so she could finish high school a year before everyone else. Well now it's been over year since I graduated and now I am 19. Well anyways this is what happened. Around the time of Victoria day, my cousin and I went up north to Kingston Ontario were my parents old lake house was. Most of our family members left Canada to go back to their home Country and so very few of our family remains here in Canada. So anyways when my cousin and I got to lake house. We got every thing unpacked, started cleaning the yard, got the boat ready for summer use and cooked some smoked salmon. After we finished all of the chores, my older sister finally arrive. So by time the my sister arrive it was night time so everyone just went to sleep. So the next day in the after noon I took a dip in the freezing St. Lawrence river, well it wasn't freezing its was alright temperate and my sister followed by my cousin jumped in to. We were in the water for like pretty much the whole day, well my sister gave up after an hour or two. So it was just my cousin and I in the water. After while tho my cousin and I finally called it a day hit the showers, but our showers at the lake house was like the showers you would normally see at a swimming pool. The showers are row by row,like one after the other if you can picture it on your mind. So there is no curtain and so me cousin just did a compromise. So we vow not to look at one another will we were both in there. But it was really difficult to resist not looking at her. When she had her back towards the wall and the water was running down her face I just couldn't resist. I just had to take a peek then that peek became a glance and well when she started to put the soap on her legs I could see here private area. And well I just couldn't help myself and my penis just got aroused. I could not control myself as she was putting soap on her legs and my heart was racing and I did not know what was going to happen next till it actually happened. I slowing walked to her while she was bent down placing soap on her legs. As I got close I placed my hands around her hips and I just thrust into her. I could not control myself, but my cousin did not even say a word while it was happening and after I had *** in her. I panicked and said I am sorry, I did not want for this to happen. After I said I was sorry my cousin reply back and she said just be quiet, forget this ever happen. Then she just looked away, grab her towel and walked away into the mist. Then after that I felt so guilty and I just went straight to bed. The following day in the morning when it was breakfast and my sister was not near us, I stated to talk to my cousin about what happened yesterday and when did she just end up changing the subject about. It's like she completely erased what had transpired the day before. Now it's about 3 days after it all happened and I feel awkward talking to my cousin but when I talk to her she seems unphased about it. Like when I talk to her she seems joyful as usually. But I just can't help to think that shes mad at me? Like do I just forget about it, but I don't want to forget something I did wrong. Can someone give me some Helpful advice? Please and thank you.

The real shadows? >A>

Tits or GTFO

I bet you took quite a bit of time to post this... but the sad truth is 99% of people here don't give a shit [spoiler]inculding me[/spoiler]

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I don't really know you, like at all. But please, [i]please[/i] stop. This is not 'Shadow's diary', this is #offtopic on bnet. Now either you're trolling(which given that this is the internet, its hard to tell) or being serious. And if it is the latter I suggest you contact someone and/or get therapy. Do you have any other family members you could live with? Contact them and get some help. And also, I am going through depression as well. But that doesn't mean I post about it on a forum made for screwing around and enjoying yourself. It's immature and projects that you're only looking for attention, and if that's not your intent i'm sorry but that's what you're doing. But I can see why pretty much everyone here is annoyed with you. You're filling a forum with your life story and that's not what people come here to do. And that's not what they want to see, this is the internet. Where pretty much no one cares about your personal business, now I'm not saying I'm one of those people (feel free to tell me all about it if you like) but really, the internet (or more specifically bnet, or any other forum of this type) is NOT the place for what you're doing here. There are plenty of sites specifically designed for people to talk about their problems. Go to 7cupsofTea.com, its a website that lets you pretty much have group therapy sessions with randoms on the internet, they also have 1 on 1 chats with a wide range of trained listeners that specialise in certain topics. From family to relationship issues. It's all free and you don't even need to make an account to use it, they also have a mobile app you can use. But please, stop posting this kind of stuff here, you're only making yourself look worse in this community. And everyone else, stop posting in OP'S threads, if its a troll you're only feeding it, which is what it wants. Best of luck to you OP. I hope you find the help you need, and I am deeply sorry for everything you're going through.

you can talk to me if you need someone tonight

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Pfft, I suffer from depression every day. Life hasn't been the kindest to me either. Yet you don't see me whining in #offtopic. Life is tough, get used to it. Grow some thick skin, or get rekt. Your choice.

Move along, just a horny teenager

Oh my god... GO AWAY