What's my purpose? I can hardly see clearly anymore. My minds always clouded. Where's that light that can guide me? All I want is to be free from this pit of despair. The heartache, the loneliness, the pain all around misery. Why can't I free myself from the employ of darkness. I struggle daily with what seems small and petty. Missing her is pointless I know this, yet I miss her anyways and cause myself unwanted pain. I anger myself. How could I let myself fall for fantasy. How could I be this stupid to allow my heart to leave this world for one girl. I can't even feel it beat anymore. It hurts. Where's that light...