Kinda how I felt when I first started getting back into games after I was medically discharged from the military. I have no feeling whatsoever in my right arm and hand. Most of what I do is on muscle memory but even then i have good days and bad days with it. Good days I'll be lucky to go positive in games because I'll manage to aim right without pushing the analog stick to far (or not push it if it's a bad day). Real bad days I have the biggest issue typing and won't even touch a controller because I won't feel the buttons at all -.-;; One of the reasons I have yet to raid fully myself. Wanna get a group that understands I have alright days and there might be moments where I screw up and just plain miss a jump, shooting a rocket/sniper, or look a different direction. Trying to figure a way to play mostly left handed but it's going slow so I just to go through motions and hope I'm doing alright. Don't worry about jerks who whine about your disability. <3 find like minded gamers who don't care about "perfection" and just wanna have fun. Or people that understand communication is hard to and from you and them so you shouldn't be relied on to heavily.