look man i didnt even have to read your entire story to see not only how decently the grammar is but the overall organization of your statement and your concerns, the amount of time you put into the post alone either shows a clear amount of patience and organized delivery or you just have this much time on your hands and want the attention either way based of that first glance i can say you are clearly a concise enough of a person to both understand what is and what isnt bad for your own "development" tell your mother to stop playing the mom card and allow yourself to develop as a fellow human..this post seems....awkward? idk