While I completely disagree with matchmaking for raids as that would force game design to dull mechanics so that a group of 6 random people at least have a chance of beating it. I do sympathize with your struggle. People may call it lazy but once you've been kicked from a group so many times you almost develop a stigma for yourself when looking for groups. "That group won't take me", or "this group wouldn't be patient enough for me". So you most of the time people who are anti-social just end up looking at recruitment and staring at post from other people wondering if they will let you in or not knowing you haven't completed it and are a little deaf. I realize this is why matchmaking would be good for you. But you have to realize it's never going to happen if Bungies wants to truly keep endgame activities challenging. Which I hope they do. Now, I would never criticize without offering a hand. The clan that I lead has led many guardians who did not think they could finish a hard raid to completion. I apologize as I did not check what console you are on before I wrote this as we are on ps4, but I would like to help you complete your moments of triumph. I assure you my group is patient and understanding and you will have a great time. Stay strong.