I'm trying to move on from my previous relationship but my ex keeps texting me. Her last text was about how she's going to divorce the guy she married. I mean yes I still have feelings for her but she broke my heart. I'm not over the hurt but at least I'm trying to move on with my life. She said she made a mistake marrying the guy and that she's not over me. I told her that she only met the guy literally 2 weeks and decided to get married which was so fooked up. She said that she wasn't happy with her decision and now she's going thru this divorce. My love for her is still there but I'm terrified. My instincts tell me to stay away from her and keep moving forward yet my heart is telling me to forgive her and be with her and comfort her because she's the love of my life. The fooked up thing is that I have this idea in my head what love is. To me love is the total sacrifice of myself to the woman I love. To devout myself to the happiness of my partner because being with her is happiness for me. Yet I'm torn because this idea is flawed. I call her the love of my life but I didn't fight for her. I didn't go and stop her wedding. I walked away from her when she cheated on me. Is she the love of my life? I don't know anymore.

Stuffs happening, feelings are being felt, the usual.