Before I actually start this I want everyone to know that what I am about to say is a truth that I will regret having hidden from you all and that I am sorry for it.
The person you have come to know as Zest is not entirely who I am. It must have been six months ago I started this lie, as part of some stupid joke but before I could understand what it cause I was far too deep. There have been truths, there have been many, I could not stand to be alive if everything I had ever said was a lie.
Last Sunday my lies finally hit me in full and I realized what they meant, that I would never be able to face the friends I had made, friends I could have made without lying to them. For a moment I faltered and let the person I was, the person I had been before, finally slip away, I blacked out and lost nearly an hour of my life, when I came to I was parked beside an overpass with one thought fading in my mind. Was I too weak to do it? I do not know, what I do know is that scared me; I tried to act like it did not but it sat there on my shoulder, eating away at me.
The reason for this whole thing is because someone found my lie and I let the man I used to be break the chain, yes, [b]man[/b]. That is the lie I told first, that I did not have any balls, that I was a woman, but I am not. I am a man, a twenty year old six foot tall man with brown hair and blue eyes and nobody I could call up to do something fun with. I'm just a sad little man that lied because he didn't want to blend into the backdrop any longer. Maybe it worked, or maybe I just used that idiotic decision to hide and let who I really am finally out into the open, either way I enjoyed the time I spent with you all [i]despite[/i] my lie.
I am sorry, please don't doubt that, but I won't ask for your forgiviness, I don't deserve that from the wonderful friends I've made.
Though it would be nice if you all would not resort to "knew it" comments, they're beneath you.
EDIT: Apparently not...
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Edited by THE ARSENAL: 3/31/2015 11:32:31 PMAlright, since I believe that you know who this is I guess I'll get to the point. You've been a very nice person, not just to me, but to everyone, you're just a really good person. But I'm sorry if I have mixed feelings about this, I knew some people that lied about almost everything and that hurt, so I get a bit more upset than others on lying. Sorry, enough about me. I'm sure everyone is fine with this, so don't worry, and I'm glad that you told us at least, I wish I could do the same.
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You still suck Trolololololo
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Fuсk you.
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BEGINNING TRANSMISSION: (Low melodious hum.) We still love you Zest. You're always going to be apart of our family in the Art Den and out. ENDING TRANSMISSION:
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Inb4aprilfools [spoiler][quote]What gender you are, what sexuality, whether you believe you're a four-hundred foot tall purple platypus-bear with pink horns and silver wings, doesn't matter and has never mattered to me. You're a good person Zest, even if you think you might not be.[/quote][/spoiler]
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All good mang!
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All females on the Internet are really dudes in real life. Doesn't everyone already know this? Actual females online are like unicorns, don't exist
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What gender you are, what sexuality, whether you believe you're a four-hundred foot tall purple platypus-bear with pink horns and silver wings, doesn't matter and has never mattered to me. You're a good person Zest, even if you think you might not be. [spoiler]Not to be insensitive if it's true, but if this is a troll, good job![/spoiler]
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[spoiler]I'm actually a piece of furniture meant for sitting 2-4 people.[/spoiler] *pats back*
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We all have our secrets. This changes nothing to me, you are still a friend.
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At least Bio can't say that I like you now..
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Fuсkin called that shit.
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Soooo~ Does this mean you'll finally post a picture? ...because I've been dying to draw you.
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Wait, zest was supposed to be a girl?
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Edited by RobRodz79: 3/31/2015 11:27:15 PM
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Like I said, lies or not, I'll always be by your side. You're a good friend. Even if you doubt it, you're a damn good friend, and I'm proud as hell to be able to call you that word. Friend.
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Hey, Zest, it's alright. I feel like we've become good friends. You with me, and the entire Art Den... <3 it's okay.
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It's okay. Closet people stick together no matter what. (>^.^)>
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Zest in all honesty I've never cared if you were a guy or a girl hell you could me a sentient pile of shit I would't give a -blam!- In the time I've known you I've grown to think of you as a friend and I'll continue to do so no matter what.
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Here we go again, have to alter your identity ;) no hard feelings from me.
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But here's the [b][i]REAL[/i][/b] question. Do you actually have a vest?
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I KNEW IT! No harm no foul. Does this mean you'll actually start using your mic now?
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It's okay zest I still love you no matter what. I'm proud to call you my friend ^.^ don't worry about it
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I would've been friends with you anyways zest. And I'll still be your friend. You're a funny dude :3
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It's ok Zest. You know I'll always be here, I'll be your friend through whatever.
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Look at the support. Look. While I understand why you feel the way you do, just know that there are clearly people who still like you here. Like a few have said, it's the Internet. You are not the first to have done this and certainly not the last. You actually have my respect for coming clean. I couldn't if I was in a position like that. I'd just drop off the face of the earth here without warning. [spoiler]Now, I want your ass back here tomorrow! ;( <3[/spoiler]