[spoiler]okay we’ve got Ikora, Cayde, my ghost, the Queen, now here’s Variks’ point of view :) sigh, poor Variks... I should give him a break... if you’re still reading thank you so much it means the world to me ❤️ [/spoiler] Did I know? ...That is a question I would prefer to leave... unanswered. She was a friend. Welcome among my house. Yes, i saw her staring. I think she is just curious, like the others. Guardians, confusing, and most surprising. Her behavior rather amused me. I enjoy watching her in prison, yes? She was a good distraction from the fighting, the fall. She keep a good distance between us at first, always quick visits. Harder to tell what she is thinking, feeling. She is hiding something, yet for some reason I trust her. Working with her feels ...right. I can tell she is different. She wanted peace, she was not interested in fame, glory. She sought no treasures. Vaults of Queen seem of little interest to her. So why she enter the prison at all? I become curious as well. It appears to catch her attention when I tell her she has done a good job. I can tell she thinks highly of me, as do I of her. I feel... something. When she bring Skolas. She is very angry, more than the others. When I ask her why, she says he had hurt me... and when I ask her why this should matter to her, she answers that I am her friend. This one is special, worthy of Judgement. Thought that she was dead at red legion attack... hurt. Made everything worse. Felt like giving up all hope. Nothing and no one for Variks. Only Petra. In the end, she must serve her people first, this is what I admire about her, yes? And I must do the same. So I become Kell. I did not bother asking if she lived. Must not welcome distractions. Must avoid any more pain. She sends me messages, she is alive. No, must focus on eliksni. She come to my mind on occasion and I push these thoughts away. I do not bother to check what she has to say. I think I must be imagining her when she shows up on my ketch. The feeling of her gentle touch was missed. Did not realize how important this guardian was to me. She proceeds to tell me ...she loves me... She wants to help me, join me. Her words flatter me deeply. Not sure what she sees in me... Still surprised to this day. But she has proven her loyalty to me before, yes? And she is now proving herself once again, she has left everything... for me. Perhaps she could be of use. So I let her stay. ...I do not know what I was thinking when I gave myself to her, when I decided to trust her. This was not part of my plan. Desperate times. A guardian... How much more could we fall? How many more rules and oaths broken? Odd, unusual, wrong, she is not even eliksni. I should be ashamed... Should not consider such a possibility of her being my mate, did not plan on having one at all... But...... did I not welcome her to my House after Skolas? Did she not bring him to me? Did she not always do as I requested of her? Was she not brave, loyal , honorable? Like eliksni of old? Perhaps then, if my mate is to be a guardian, it should be her... Confused with these ...[i]feelings[/i] ...for a while.. Judgement must come first. But she knows this... she wants to stay. And for some reason... I do not want her to leave. [spoiler]please check out my friends fanfic here it’s amazing! https://www.bungie.net/en/Forum/Post/250234041/0/0[/spoiler]