-blam!- my life everyone hates me for being a Christian, brony, Boy Scout, having morals. No girl wants to date me in a 100 mile radius, probably cause their rednecks and I don't do mudding cause I don't want to intentionally get that dirty. My parents don't understand how my mind works because I'm a sensitive boy who just wants to play games on Xbox so he can vent problems with strangers, talk about the game, help those strangers with their problems. Most of my friends consist of girls idk why. And my friends give me flak about hanging out with other friends because there social groups hate each other. why can't I remember to do something I need to do like homework it's so frustrating. Why don't people understand my homophobia is actually related to very very traumatic locker room abuse like the fact I almost got -blam!- once. Why don't people take books, movies, satire, and music to heart. Why is the only music and etc. they take to heart about -blam!-ing bitches and getting money. Why can't satan take a break from torturing me for once. Why do I have to be fat. Why do people have to say if you weren't fat I'd date you. Why do rednecks try to tear me apart like animals. Why are drama people such feminazis, I mean I agree with almost all feminist values but they basically want to wipe out the male population. Why is it hard to understand that my friend Richard is gay and I'm a Christian it's not like we're mortal enemies. Why is it hard to believe he goes to my church. When is the next season of my little pony coming out. Why are they laughing. Oh wait I'm wearing my rainbow dash t-shirt. I wish I could have a fluttershy one. I want my blanket. Why don't I kill my self I'm insignificant and worthless. Lovely, Brooke is going on about how she doesn't want me to say God be with you or I'll pray for you because that's not a compliment/sign of sympathy. If I want to kill myself I want to go out in a blaze of glory and put a 10 mega ton bomb in the library. Oh no I shouldn't be thinking that. Dear God expel satan from my thoughts(x10). Oh great now I need aspren. Crap I'm out. I want a girl who: is in control, loves pun wars, will be high paid, let me stay home with the kids cause kids are great, respects me, cares about me, isn't afraid to try new things in the bed or not, I can grow old with and love, can teach me to cook, how social media works, is a six on the scale. Yes all men have scales. Why do people aim for 10. Why do people think I aim low a six is look with a good personality a 10 for me is a stereotypical ditsy blonde. Why do some people look up to me. Why is what I do so strange to people. Why do people think my personality is cool. Why do older people look at me like there proud of me or want to be me they're like 20-30 older than me and I'm in high school. Why can't someone just be polite for once. God I really need strength right now please give it to me. Thank you God for all you've done so far in my life *cries. If we live in a post modern era were all truths are relevant and there are no absolute truths doesn't that mean it's incorrect cause that's and absolute truth and/or the argument can be flipped to say there are absolute truth and that's a truth And my last most very important thought that nobody knows. Why can't I ask Allison out is it cause I'm to shy, submissive, weak, am I to paranoid how I look. She's everything I want in a girl and more. S/he may be intersex, a hermaphrodite, but I love her and I want to be with her into death. Although she looks up to me and I bet s/he's shy, but s/he's never shy. We've been through a lot together s/he's my best friend after all. Me and her some how break the foundations of what many believe to be true. I just wish I could be with her whether s/he would technically be my husband/boyfriend or girlfriend/wife idk I just want to be at her side and cuddle. Thank you for the vent

Observing married couples in my lifetime. Guy: hey babe I made you a chocolate sundae with extra chocolate sauce. Female: angrily turns down the sundae "you want me fat!" Female: Does this dress make me look fat? Guy: Yes, sort of Female: runs to the room and slams the door. Guys mind: well don't ask me something you don't want to hear the answer to! Geeesh woman! While watching TV Female: do you think she's hot? Guy: Not my type Female: argues, I know you'd want to fawk her! Guy: ugh what? Guy: You look gorgeous today hun Female: what! I'm not gorgeous everyday, just today huh? Female: I know you were looking at her, I saw you peeking at that waitress. You think she's hot huh? You want to fawk her? Guy: what? (In his mind: what in the world has gotten into this woman?) Several hours later.... Female: I'm so sorry babe, you know how having my time of month can get to me and have me start a scene like I did at the restaurant.

Some of my thoughts during the day: -10 more minutes, and I'll wake up. -Ugggghhhh, work -Why is my manager so talkative these days? -stupid customers.... -Middle aged white women....NOOOOOOO -A DOG!! -A BABY!! Look at the adorable little fcker -what is life? Why are we alive? -is everything an illusion? -Marc -why do I have to eat? -WAAAAATTTTEEEEEERRRRRRT -Time to check tumblr -I want a boyfriend - I do not want a boyfriend