[b]NOTE: I tried to bump another post under the same name, but it wouldn't. So I'm just re-posting it here for more people to see in it's slightly updated form.[/b] Hello there. This is gonna be a bit of an odd post for me to make, and i assume it'll be just as odd for anyone to look at too. But this is something i strongly feel i need to post here in order for me to continue playing this game after hitting a brick wall. So here goes nothing. This post will have two parts to it. The short part, which I'll be discussing in just a moment. And the long part, which will come afterwards, just in case you don't want to read through a giant wall of text. So, the short story is as follows. I'm looking for fellow Guardians to become friends with me. I'm looking for Guardians who share similar values in D2 as i do, such as people who care more about having fun playing a game and taking their time to soak in all the content, rather than focusing on getting things done as fast as possible, making sure everyone uses the best possible load-outs at all times, and getting mad at or kicking people from fire-teams whenever they don't do as you say. To put it even more simply, i want to continue to play this game with other people who I'm gonna see more than one time in an LFG post, with people who will want to share in the good times with other chill peeps, and just focus on having a fun time above all else. So, for those of you who understood what i had to say there and don't want to listen to the long drawn out version of this post, if you want to friend me, you can either add me on Bungie.net or on Xbox. My GT on Xbox is the same as my account name over here, minus the # and numbers of course. For everyone else who wants to listen to the words of an old Guardian ramble on for a while, feel free to continue with me down below. I guess the first place to start off is where it all started with me. I began playing Destiny during The Taken King, all the way back in year 2 of D1, when the game really started getting good. I spent a long chunk of my time as a solo player, all the way up until our current point of time, only going into teams when it was forced, or if i wanted to get some good loot from a raid, dungeon, or nightfall. I didn't have many friends back then, even to this day it's hard for me to find people who are willing to hang out even for a couple days each week. When i did attempt to branch out and try looking for other people to play with more regularly, i tried everything i could think of. Talking to the few people i know IRL, adding people to my friend's list after a long drawn out activity, seeking out active and bustling clans to locate people who would want to do any kind of content, just to chill and have a good time together. But no matter how i tried to find some friends, it never seemed to go anywhere. Everyone i knew IRL who was a gamer had no interest in the game. The people i added rarely or never contacted me, even when i tried reaching out to them first. And anytime i tried joining a clan, they always focused on one of three things. Get better than you already were and keep doing that until you're in the top 10% of players, focus on getting clan banner rewards for everyone, or only talking to the people you already know in the clan, and let all the newcomers figure everything else out on their own. It ended up pushing me towards the point where i started to realize the vast majority of this community is only interested in one thing. Getting everything done as fast as possible, (the Speed-runner Mentality as i call it) which meant the only people you should ever play with are the people who already have all the best gear unlocked and have a ton of builds on their characters, and know everything there is to know about all the endgame activities. If you don't force yourself onto that pedestal to make everyone else happy, you aren't going to be invited into other groups to play the really challenging activities, which means you won't be able to get the good loot, and more importantly, for me anyway, you won't find anyone else willing to be friends with you. And so that's what i ended up forcing myself to do during Beyond Light. I forced myself to accept only the best load-outs, even if i didn't have any fun using them. I withstood listening to abusive fire-team leaders give myself and others a hard time in order to get things done in a timely manner, and i absorbed all the information i could about everything there was to know to increase the chances i could continue to play with other people more regularly. But after a whole year of forcing myself to become a completely different Guardian, just so i could feel like i found somewhere i belonged, and tricked myself into thinking i had found some friends who would be there for me whenever i wanted to engage in more content, i realized how far from the path i began to tread, and i had to come full stop if i was to ever find a way back to my old ways, to remember why i started playing this game in the first place. I play this game to have fun above all else. If I'm not having fun, there's no reason for me to continue playing. And at that point in time up until the present, i wasn't and am not having any fun. Not because i don't like this game anymore, but because i hate playing by someone else's rules, rather than by my own. And i especially hate playing this game alone, or with random people who only get to see me once in a playlist or LFG match and never again. What you need to know about me in the here and now as a Guardian of D2, is that i don't have a lot of preferred load-outs i enjoy using, and most of them wouldn't be really good for DPS in endgame activities. To me, you should always focus on building a load-out that's fun for you to use in as many kinds of activities as possible, even if they are less than optimal in most of the endgame content. For me, I'm a Titan Main who prefers to wander around a battlefield with the good old Sweet Business + Actium War Rig combo, and i prefer to focus on clearing out adds with a gun that almost never needs to worry about reloading. I also love support builds like Ursa Banner Shield Titan, so i can keep my allies safe from harm, increase their damage, generate lots of orbs for them, and regenerate my super a lot quicker all while I'm protecting them. I only really use the Hunter in the Crucible because that's where they belong, because they're useless in all other forms of content. (That's my attempt at being funny, in case you don't have a sense of humor) And Warlocks i feel are more of an experimental class than anything. They're fun to mess around with, but that's about it for my preferred classes. As for what kind of person i am in general, I'm mostly a quiet type who doesn't have much to say, and nowadays i find myself mostly introverted, so it's harder for me to reach out to others in order to have fun together. The way i see it for the most part, is if the people on my friend's lists aren't going to contact me from time to time, let alone at all, there's little to no reason to be friends with them. So, in case you missed anything, allow me to reiterate. I'm a lonely and introverted Guardian who, after being a solo player in Destiny for nearly 7 years, has come to the realization that in order for me to continue having fun playing this game, and of course to continue playing this game, i need other people who share at least some of my thought processes. Namely that no matter what anyone has to say, Destiny 2 is a game, meant to be played in order to have fun. And while i know everyone has fun in their own ways, my way is focusing on just that. Not treating the game like there's an active timer everywhere you go, not telling other people what load-outs they need to use wherever they go or whoever they go with, and to find other people who care more about having a good time with their pals, even if it comes at the cost of not beating higher level content. So, i believe that sorts out the long winded expo for me. For those of you who decided to read through all of this, if you feel you want to hang out with someone like me, you should know what to do by now. If not, go back up to where the short explanation was and you'll figure it out pretty quick. Oh, and i should also state one more thing for the record. This is not a request from me begging for a clan invite. I'm already in my own little clan, though it's more of a fan fiction style clan for a story I'm working on around my characters. I find most clans nowadays to be extremely limited in terms of what they seem to offer nowadays anyway, so I'm not really interested in joining another one at this time. Maybe when Bungie overhauls the whole clan system one day and makes them more worthwhile to join, I'll change my mind then.