When the PSN servers went down around Christmas time I was forced to take a break from Destiny. For me that break ended today. I know the PSN servers have been back for a while now, but I could not bring myself to come back to the game. I found myself feeling relieved when the servers were down. I had an excuse to not be playing. For the first time since release, I could stop playing and not worry about falling behind. I started PC gaming again while I was away, and I have had a great time. My phone buzzed with a message today asking me to play and I obliged. We didn't play for very long before the person I was playing with signed off. Since tonight is the last night Xur is around, I checked out what I could upgrade, and it turned out I desperately needed to upgrade my Gjallarhorn. If I was going to be continuing my break, I at least needed that upgraded right? Then I saw that Xur had Kuncklehead radar. I needed that upgraded for my main's subclass, despite the fact that I've already put hours into upgrading it in vanilla Destiny. Then it hit me. What the -blam!- am I doing? Why am I playing this game? I come back after a week-and-a-half hiatus, and do you know what my night consisted of? Glimmer farming... -blam!-ing glimmer farming for three hours straight, because I didn't want to miss out on Xur's upgrades. Something dawned on me as I was sitting in my usual Glimmer farming spot; this is not fun, I am not having fun right now. In fact, this is agonizing. All I want to do is stop playing. This is how I realized after playing Destiny since release day, that I hate Destiny. I hate Destiny for the time it has taken away from me. In the short while I was not playing, I was actually enjoying myself gaming on my PC. I was actually enjoying myself not farming all night while my girlfriend waits for me to finish. I was having a good time not feeling like every action I made was carefully controlled by Bungie. I haven't even been playing Destiny for more than a few months, and I already feel like it has been a huge drain on my life. And worst of all, I was never actually having a good time. It isn't even like Destiny is even a good game! If you are going to sink hours of your life into a video game, for God's sake make sure it's actually a good one at least! Quit while you can guys. This game utterly sucks. You are all just mindless drones programmed into doing the same thing over and over. Get out while you can. And no Deej, we cannot be friends. You are promoting a game you know is garbage. I don't feel sorry for you. You and Bungie deserve all the hate you get.