Imagine the following situation: You love red gatorade and your second favourite gatorade is the yellow type. For a while you have the red gatorade, but then someone comes in and says that you can never have the red gatorade ever again. At first you're all sad because you can't have red gatorade anymore, then you realize that you have the yellow flavour. For a good amount of time you forget about the red gatorade and life is great, and you think that yellow might be the new red. Then there is a moment when someone gives you just a sip of the red gatorade. That's when poop hits the fan. All of the memories about red gatorade come back. And then once again you're no longer allowed to have red gatorade, so you switch back to yellow: however the red gatorade hints at the idea of you still being able to drink it. That's all it is though a hint, a mere possibility, and you'd have to work like a dog for it, and, AND, you could never ever drink yellow gatorade again. In never drinking the yellow gatorade you also break its heart. What do you do? By the way: Red gatorade is one girl, and yellow gatorade is a different one