I feel like I’m drowning today I feel like I’m stuck in a way I feel like I’m dying, I’m fake I feel like I’m losing my mind I feel like I’m losing my faith I feel like I’m battling demons I feel like I’m punching away, at my self driving my mind out the way. I feel like my soul is week, I loose this week, homework driving my hate. I feel like I don’t want to be bothered to love any other in any way. I feel like I’m highly inadequate, imbalanced and hard to sway. I feel like she is good for me. I feel like she’s lying to me. I feel like there’s no way she can love me. In this way that I don’t love myself. I feel like how hard I’ll never help I feel like I’m loosing control. 19 I’m loosing my relevance. I feel like that line was a joke I feel like I’m a bum with no smoke. Life’s the joke. Damn. “God damn you, god damn me, god damn we, god damn us all.” We’ve been cursed. And it’s our fault. He paid the way. There is no difference in his eyes between a liar and a murderer. I lie to my family. I murder them. Damn. I try to be righteous but end up nothing but a tight ass. Christ gave the example. Why is it so hard to love rather than to say Damn. God game to earth. Earth spat on god Why do I think I would have been different? Damn. I feel like I want to be over. I feel like I want to be ended. I feel like I don’t want I to die I feel like I want to evaporate. I feel like I’m fading away I feel like I’m going astray. I feel like I’m dying to Christ. I feel like it shouldn’t be this way I feel like I should die to self. So my soul can rest. I feel like god is blind I feel like I’ve fallen away. I feel like his back is turned I know that it’s the other way.