I was with you until about mid june. I hated crucible but the lack of house of wolves fun drove me to start. I got rekt a lot at first (and still do to an extent) and became stubborn wanting to get better. I've improved a lot since then and usually go positive with the occasional bad games thrown in there. Honestly I'm having a lot of fun with it and glad to see my improvements. It's pretty rewarding the more you play. I never played any multi-player game before so it's all new and it grows on you quickly.