I will say this. I was like you from december till march..maybe april.. then i thought differently about crux. ...i figured what are my strong points.. in pve. Then applied them.. adapted them.. change you subclass build etc... i took advice from fireteam members..but eith time i stopped worrying about not winning. . And now i focus on not just how i play..but play with my team. If i know om a grenade hooar.. ill figure a way to utilize that talent to help my team. I feel everytime you jump in crux you get better.. dont sweat it k !