I was depressed and anxious for the past 5 years of my life, I am 18 now and I still am but now I feel much more motivated and I know exactly why. I had a long distance relationship with a girl and it ended badly. I've recently started talking to her again and I realized how much I still like her. Problem is, we live thousands of miles apart. She wants to keep it limited to a friendship because of the distance, she says she thinks I'm cute and that she still likes me too. I want it to be more but at the same time I don't see it happening within any reasonable time frame. I know long distance is hard and doesn't work out a lot but I'm to the point that I just don't give a shit anymore. I feel happy just talking to her and I didn't know something so damn simple could make me feel so happy. I can't stop thinking about her, she's beautiful and so upbeat. I want to go to university and study physics, biomedical engineering or robotics engineering. I want money so I can go see her. I know I need to focus on my personal, long term goals (which is education in a field I'd enjoy) but I just feel like it'll be impossible to put something like this off. I'd need significant cash to pursue a relationship in person with her and I don't have it. If I had even 10 grand I could probably multiply the money by a factor of five through investments, I just don't have the capital to do it and even then, it could not work out and I'd have no degree or I'd be stuck going to school away from my family. Well, it's not like the flood needed another post about girls, but I don't really have anyone to tell this. For now, I'm just going to enjoy it for what it is. INB4 LOLlongdistancerelationships I felt the same before I met this girl. I really, REALLY like her and I am happy with it now, I just feel that when I want it to progress, there's a roadblock in the way.