My oppo from Bosnia took his own life in 2010. We did three tours together in the nineties and while I came through it pretty unscathed he was haunted by what we saw. And we saw a lot. Bosnia was a pretty -blam!- civil war and we did tours as UN Peacekeepers while in the military. I was visiting him when he did it. I had gone out for a bit of a shopping trip, he stayed in London and I am from the frozen wastes of Scotland so I had a shopping list as long as your arm, and when I came back to the flat he had killed himself. I found him in his bedroom. The note he left apologised, he said I was the only one that he thought could take finding him. He didn't want to have his family find him. We had been in the pub a few hours earlier and he was in pretty good spirits. Looking back signs were there but he was one guy I never thought would commit suicide. With the note was a Ouija board. He wanted me to have it so we could keep in touch according to the note. if you're military or ex mil you will get the humour. If not, you wouldn't understand. Whatever, he's at peace now. He's not hurting anymore. The Ouija board is on my wall, framed.