So... I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. Please know that you're not alone, and yes, it DOES get better... but you have to be a part in MAKING it better. If you want to tell your parents, you can. You, however, know them best. Do they love you? Do you honestly believe they would kick you out? Are you ready to face the possible repercussions? You can also tell your parents that you'd like to see a counselor or a therapist, as you're dealing with some personal issues and you want an outside opinion/outside help. (I would honestly recommend this no matter what. They can also help prep you AND your parents if you do want to talk about your gender. And no, not a religious one. An ACTUAL unbiased opinion who will help support you and help you support yourself.) School can seem very repetitive, especially when you have no goals to work towards. So... what are your passions? What do you think about or what do you do that makes you happy? What do you enjoy? Take those things, and DO them. Spend time learning about them and wrapping your brain up in them. If you say you have nothing, then think of things that SOUND fun to do and go do them. Stop fighting who you are and embrace it. Those who love you will either follow in suite, or they won't, and you'll learn that you're capable of living without them. Hang in there, friend.