I personally just dropped out of college. Self esteem is at an all time low and relationships with my parents are all but shattered. Yea I've thought about suicide. So I figured is try drugs, that (literally) almost got me killed so I learned my lesson there. I'm just distracting myself with different interests. Currently I'm enjoying vaping, pretty fun to tinker with and it keeps me away from cigs. Also looking into mycology (studying fungus) because it's interesting... And reasons •-•