Me? rough. First and last time I did self harm, made me focus on the physical pain rather than the emotional pain. Also smoked tons of weed and chugged alcohol down like a mofo; I did anything in my power to stop the pain, even if it was temporary. Laid in bed for countless hours, didn't really want to talk to friends, and thought tons about her. sometimes I'd tell myself I was too good for her, could never bring myself to believe it though. But I'd always talk to this one girl afterwards, she'd always make me feel better. And now I'm doing alright, still miss her though. But now me and her are besties :P I'm all social again too.