The amount of support youve gotten is crazy. I just got hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate and a tiny bit support. Heck, i mean, im kinda in the same situation now, but i had exactly your problem a while ago. Its scary to have this, since you just dont feel in control of yourself, and you feel helpless. Thats my experience atleast, and i dont have it so well now either. If u want to pm or something, just feel free to do so.