EDIT: This is probably the worst idea I've had in my whole lifespan. I originally intended to burn the letter for some stupid emotional closure, but decided not to. I'm starting to think it's best that I DO burn the letter.. Well, it finally happened flood. After almost a year of hiding my feelings from this girl for so long and barely talking to her, last week out of frustration about my feelings for her I wrote her a letter explaining my feelings. To my surprise, it actually turned out way better than I thought. I wrote about a page and 1/4 long, and I showed my letter to various girls and all said it was very sweet and that I should give it to her. A couple said they'd be surprised if she didn't like me back after that or even be flattered. It seems to be the season of love around school, and I guess it was about time I manned up. I'll let you know about what happened after this Friday, I plan on putting it in her locker and waiting for her response. So for more discussion value, have you ever done something to reveal your feelings for that special someone? [b]HERE'S THE LETTER[/b] [i]"Gina, I know we don't talk much or really know each other well, but I've had these feelings for you for the longest time now. I never really knew exactly what they were or what they mean, but I good a good vibe from you. You seem very sweet and you are really pretty, that's why I still haven't had the guys to talk to you. I'm nervous, always have been. Every time I see you my heart skips a beat and I can't stop thinking about you. The feelings I have almost always frustrate me because I never know what to do. I've had some terrible experience with girls in the past, that's also why I can't just go up to you and actually have a meaningful conversation and get to know you. I'm afraid. I don't really know what you're like or if you'd even like me. I can't control it. I never knew what kept me from approaching you until now, and it's fear. These feelings for you started small in May of freshman year and have slowly grown over this year up to now, as I write this in April of sophomore year. All this time I had to hide it from you because I was different then compared to now. I've grown a lot and been through some bad situations, but I still keep coming back to you. for some reason. I may not be as attractive or smart as you, but I have a good heart. Despite what society dictates about the values of love in general, I have a feeling that you have heart too. Honestly I don't even know why I'm writing this letter or if I'll give it to you. I don't know what you think of m, but I think good of you. I'd love to get to know you better and maybe if I'm lucky be with you. I'm not asking you out or trying to whatever it is, I'm writing to get this off my chest finally. Like I said before, I have no clue what you think of me at all, but at this point I don't think I'll ever know. Some people tell me I shouldn't even bother with you because I might be going to Palm Bay next year (which I dread) but in my hear I know I need to at least do something Here goes nothing. -Nick"[/i]
I'm burning the letter. After much re-evaluation of the situation, I've decided to burn it and just move on. I feel crazy and scared of what I'm seeing of myself: Some lonely guy who fell in love with a persona he attached to some pretty girl he barely knew. Thanks for getting some common sense into me flood, I almost made a huge mistake.